52 Exercises Breakdown

52 Exercises: Breakdown of a Breakdown

I announced the 52 Exercises quest as way to tackle a mid-life crisis with the byline:

“52 Exercises: How One Woman Dared to Deal With a Mid-Life Crisis.”

The term ‘mid-life crisis’ was a euphemism for mental breakdown because I wasn’t ready to announce a breakdown to the world. I was hoping it would go away before anyone noticed.

But my depression did not budge, as these things won’t when you try to bury them. I’ve now learnt the more you try to deny an emotion the more stubbornly it will cling to you, but at the time I didn’t know that and I was pretty desperate to make sure that my dear friends, family and readers didn’t find out I was depressed. A fact I tried to hide until week 11.

I wasn’t recovering from depression because that’s easier to talk about. Everyone has a problem they’ve recovered from; I was submerged in this one. My depression was an ongoing problem, one I would have liked to hide but couldn’t so I learnt how to people tell people the truth about yourself.

For 52 weeks I wrote about my depression as I tried a different exercise every week because I had to, not because I wanted to. I shared it because my depression and breakdown were tied to feelings of inauthenticity around being the founder of Get In the Hot Spot, a personality who inspired people in their forties and above to be more adventurous and have more fun, when secretly I felt useless and despondent.

The physical exercise in the 52 Exercises quest didn’t help me recover from depression as much as the mental exercise did. That included organising, doing and blogging about a different exercise each week as well as therapy, meditation and mindfulness. There was lots of writing (most of which wasn’t published on the blog) as I tried to make sense of what was happening to me and how my experiences could help you.

The story ends here in a break down of the 52 exercises I tried, with one exercise tested and covered every single week in 2013. Some exercises were almost cop outs and physically undemanding like bat and ball, but a lot of the exercises, like body building and an obstacle race, pushed me to my limits.

Although the more obviously challenging exercises tended to get more blog post comments and views than less strenuous exercises, I often I learnt as much in the weeks where I didn’t push myself so hard as in the weeks that I did.

I hope you can learn something from reading about my experiences and journey from depression to buoyancy. I hope it makes you laugh and cry as it did me.

Most of all I hope it let’s you know that if you’re depressed you are not alone and if you’re going through a tough time it won’t last forever.

Here’s the breakdown of the breakdown so you can see how my fitness levels, my depression, my anxiety and my writing progressed over the year:

  1. Horse-Riding
  2. Indoor Wall Climbing
  3. Spin Class
  4. Jogging
  5. Ice-Skating
  6. Soccer
  7. MTV Dance!
  8. Bikram Yoga (and Thoughts on Feeling Weird)
  9. Target Toning Exercise DVD (and 5 Reasons to Find a DVD You Love)
  10. Cage Fitness (and a Python Ate Our Guinea Pig)
  11. Stand Up Paddle-Boarding (and a Confession About Depression)
  12. Jazz Dance (and Learning to Let Go)
  13. Feldenkrais and a Life Less Hectic
  14. Boxercise to Find Your Inner Strength
  15. Freestyle Yoga (or Escape Artists Anonymous)
  16. Outrigger Canoeing (and What Floats Your Boat?)
  17. Beach Bat and Ball for Buddhists
  18. Mountain Hiking and Why I’m in a Bad Mood
  19. Ocean Swim with Unwanted Depression
  20. Beach Walking and Mindfulness for Beginners
  21. Jiu Jitsu and How to Deal With Anger
  22. Falun Gong Surprise
  23. Mindfulness Body Scan for a Whinging Pom
  24. Sexual Healing at Aqua Aerobics
  25. Cardio Tennis, a Lesson in Fantasy Versus Reality
  26. Body Building: Inspiration for Personal Transformation
  27. Rock Climbing
  28. Vinyasa Yoga and How to Make Life Changes
  29. Table Tennis – a Reminder to be Kind to Yourself
  30. Skydiving and the Real Meaning of Fear
  31. Social Netball and Making Friends Through Exercise
  32. Iyengar Yoga and Letting Go of the Bank Balance
  33. Badminton – Is it Time to Quit?
  34. Zumba – Latino Love and Energy Boost
  35. Rushing onto the Power Plate
  36. Salsa Party
  37. Tai Chi, Getting Glasses and Other Rites of Passage for Ageing
  38. The Stampede Obstacle Race for Anxious People
  39. Bike Ride to Peregian Beach With My Bro
  40. Kayaking in Noosa and Stress Reduction
  41. Sh’bam and Amazing Travel Plans
  42. Urban Safari in Harare and Zimbabwe Travel Myths Busted
  43. Surfing Emotional Waves
  44. Noosa Triathlon Fun Run
  45. Beach Fitness and Love
  46. Pilates and Self Care
  47. Slacklining Makes Failure Fun
  48. Killer Steps for a Natural High
  49. Kundalini Yoga and Finding Your Inner Truth
  50. Thai Boxing and Life After Depression
  51. Dance Show and Dealing With Anxiety
  52. Swimming Laps and New Beginnings

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I’m feeling so much better now. I think I’m calmer, wiser and kinder. More the kind of person I’d like to be.

I’m not perfect and I know I never will be but I can live with that now. I’ve proven that you can change at 40 or older, I’m still working on myself and I’m excited about the future.

If you’re interested in positive change too I’ve introduced a new series called How to Embrace Change at Any Age which is only available by email to email subscribers. It’s free – sign up here now if you’d like to start making life changes, stay flexible or cope better with change when it happens.

This whole experience and journey has taken me from feeling restless to feeling settled. I’ve still got some amazing travel plans for the year ahead but the travel is less of a driving urge to run away and more of an added bonus on a life that’s really pretty amazing.

I’ve travelled around the world searching for happiness and inner peace for the last 27 years but I’ve realised those things will only ever be temporary. You can touch them but you can never hold onto them for ever. And I’m okay with that too now I’ve finally come home to myself.

Have you ever had a mental breakdown or been through tough times and come out better for it? 

Thank You Dear Reader

Your support, encouragement, emails and blog comments have helped me keep going when everything seemed hopeless. You being here has helped me know that I wasn’t really alone, even when I felt mired in loneliness.

Thank you for reading Get In the Hot Spot, being here with me on this journey and making it all worthwhile.

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Author: Annabel Candy

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Johanna January 20, 2014 at 4:32 pm

Oh I know what you mean about travel being a driving urge to run away, rather than as something to be enjoyed in an exploratory sort of way. My whole life has been like that. I’ve only really been interested in going to places on holiday “Where I might potentially want to live one day!” It’s only been in the last few months (has the universe shifted I wonder?!) that I feel content where I am and like you see travel as a bonus, rather than as a way to look for somewhere new to live ;)

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Annabel Candy January 20, 2014 at 7:23 pm

Hi Johanna,

Gosh that’s an amazing transformation in thinking. So glad you are feeling more settled too.

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Cate January 20, 2014 at 4:56 pm

Hi Annabel,
your biggest journey has been through your own mind and I salute you for that, because, surely, it is the scariest one we ever make. I’ve enjoyed following your series and I have laughed for you and wept for you, and, truly, I hope you have come to rest in a better place.
As for me, I’ve only just taken up travelling again (physically) and am quite excited as it is something I always loved to do (as a youngster)… thanks for your inspiration :-)
Cate

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Annabel Candy January 20, 2014 at 7:24 pm

Hi Cate,

Thank you, that’s great to hear and I am so excited about your travel adventures. I’m sure you’ll still love it :)

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Sandra Pawula January 20, 2014 at 5:47 pm

My goodness, it’s hard to believe it’s been a whole year! You’ve accomplished so much on so many levels. Thank you for your openness and honesty and all the wild exercises you share to help us all stay fit in body, mind, and soul.

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Annabel Candy January 20, 2014 at 7:25 pm

Thank you Sandra, I think we’ve all accomplished a lot – it’s good to recognize that for a change instead of just thinking it wasn’t enough.

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Seana - Sydney, Kids, Food + Travel January 21, 2014 at 9:26 pm

Yes, and definitely yes…. some major and some minor but each period of pain does end and there’s always wisdom to be gained….. Am a firm believer in asking for help and being humble… and grateful for the help that’s there.

Your series has been a pleasure to read and an important part of last year for me. So good to hear you have the new series.

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Annabel Candy January 22, 2014 at 10:00 am

Hi Seana,

Yes, the new series will be by email only though but I know you’re a subscriber so that’s great.

I agree asking for help is a big key. We all need support, it’s hard to ask for it but golden when we do :)

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[email protected] January 21, 2014 at 10:30 pm

This is an amazing journey you have been on Annabel and I salute you for writing honestly about it. Many women will gain strength through this knowing that they are not the only ones going through what you have just been through. Congratulations on your incredible accomplishments.

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Annabel Candy January 22, 2014 at 10:01 am

Thank you Jenny

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Krishna Everson January 22, 2014 at 9:12 am

I feel sad and inspired at the same time. Sad that I had no idea you were going through this, inspired that you kept going and completed the 52 weeks Annabel! That’s an amazing achievement. Thank you for sharing your vulnerability. Blessings for 2014 xx

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Annabel Candy January 22, 2014 at 10:01 am

Thank you Krisha

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Fran January 22, 2014 at 7:46 pm

Annabel, thanks for sharing your journey. One of the things I find amazing is that even when depressed I can get on with life. Great that you did the 52 weeks of different exercises. Exercise, good food, enough sleep, doing something social and something just for me are my everyday list that helps in my case. Enjoy you trip next trip. I am off to the USA on Monday. Fran xx

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Teresa January 23, 2014 at 7:24 am

This is fan bloody tastic… What a brilliant article!!!

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sharon June 26, 2014 at 4:41 am

Hi such positive messages I am 52 and have been through hell all my life and become a survivor of DV I have in the last 4 months nurtured my inner self by being kind loving my body is OK and looks but most important is inside I get down little knowing that I am getting wrinkles saggy skin I am looking after my health know and diet the hardest thing for me to get through in life was not having any family support and walking alone from a sheltered life to connecting with others but one thing for certain I have god of my understanding believing in myself and at 52 knowing where I am at and where I am going to helping others because of my past experience

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sherill September 23, 2014 at 12:31 pm

Hi, thanks for sharing a great post, i’m sure most of your readers who are at least in their mid life crisis can relate to this. Zumba is something great which i do three times a week and it gives me a different kind of energy which helps me a lot. Really great!

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Sarah Brabazon January 19, 2016 at 6:53 pm

Hi Annabel,
I’m sorry to hear that you were depressed, and I’m awed that you attempted and achieved such a huge goal while in the thick of it. Reading your post today (not this one, the one that came in on 19 Jan, 2016), I thought of someone who might be able to help you put the book together. Her name is Natasa Denman, and she has a book/course called Ultimate 48 Hour Author. From the title, I t sounds like it could be a scam, or other really dodgy copout but I’ve heard her interviewed, I have the course (and I dream of doing her retreat), and it is just a really neat way of getting organised and then dictating your already compiled notes. To me, it sounds like you might be a good fit. I’m not an affiliate for Natasa, but if you decide to contact her, I’d love it if you mentioned my name.

Best of luck with all of your future endeavours, I’ve really enjoyed reading your posts.

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